Okay so let me say that it is right now 12:00 my time and I have finally found some time to post. Between work, sick kids, birthdays, and cheerleading that I haven't had 5 minutes to myself. It seems that my days are completely consumed.

There is so much to tell and oh so much to say. I really don't know where to begin. So let's start here. First, this month has been totally amazing for me. After a year of being out of work my husband is finally back to work. Now he won't start until the end of this month but this job is well worth the wait. Second, my two youngest girls began cheering again in August and the season has almost come to an end. I have had the greatest time this year and truly enjoyed coaching my youngest girls squad again this year. Even though I am not head coach I have learned and gotten to do so many new things this season. Like coach the girls by myself. I am so proud of myself, my daughters, and all the girls I have helped coach. Each of our squads have been amazing.

Some of the chaos I have called my life for the past year seems to be ending and a new journey is beginning. This new job will require my husband to not be with me and the girls most of the time. So it will now be adjusting from having him with me all the time to only having him sometime. I am scared and yet excited all in one. The last 8 years of our married life we have spent day in and day out together. So being alone is scary yet new. I also know that we both will do what needs to be done so that our girls are taken care of and have a roof over their heads. It won't be easy but I am absolutely sure that we are gonna be okay.

I have learned so many wondrous things about myself and about my own faith this year, that it still amazes me how in your darkest hour when you think that there is no light God finds a way to let you know that he is there and will always remain there. I have learned to lean on him and to not always think that I must do things on my own. Sometimes it is about learning to let go and let God take over all of it. It is about not always having control. I also know that it is about not living in what was it is about living in what can be and will be. It is allowing God to move you and let out all of his blessings on you.

One other small but minute note to my readers. The posts titled Diary Of An Insane Woman are not to offend anyone. They are to help you to understand where I was and where I am today. They are to help you better understand how only my faith and love in the lord above have helped me to survive what I feel like has been one long year. I will be finishing them one month at a time for you. Right now for me though it will be about finding 5 more minutes. I will also be adding some posts that I got ready right before our cheerleading season so if they look like they are a little off on date, don't worry they are.

So here is to the life of all of you hectic woman out there. May you each find 5 minutes no matter what time of the day or in my case morning it might be. For each and every one of you deserve it.