I am one of those girls that never feels pretty. I am overweight and not a little overweight but by a good 30 lbs. When anyone compliments me I always say “ no, I have x and x wrong with me.” I can’t accept anyone would think I am pretty or anything else. Why? I am not really sure. I was with my partner of this blog Saturday and we were having the typical girl talk and she started complimenting me. Instead of accepting it I immediately started the “ This, this, and this is wrong with me.” Being the good friend she is she immediately gave me the “ Are you crazy” look. What she doesn’t realize is that the time I had been sitting there I had been wishing I looked as good as she does. She is beautiful and has a great body. I want to look like her..but why? Why can’t I be happy being me?

Being single sometimes doesn’t help. Especially when you are 37 and have two kids. You look in the mirror one morning and think “OMG, I am old! Who is going to want someone that has a few wrinkles, comes with two packages that are hormonal and god forbid drama queens?” As if that isn’t bad enough you also think “ Is there really someone out there for me or did I screw it all up?”.  Yeah, I have some issues  But we all do which is why I wanted to start this category. I want to talk about my struggles, how I feel and maybe help someone else in the process or better yet have someone say “ Hey Lady, you aren’t crazy! I have the same feelings too!” I hope you follow along on my journey and my partners journey because shhh, she is actually the crazy one. She is beautiful and thin but still thinks x and x is wrong with her. So I in return give her my “Are you crazy look”.